Promises

I'm always making promises that I won't keep
I promised her, then I promised her, then I told her, then I promised him
I knew I wouldn't keep these promises, I knew I would slip and I would give in
But then I promised you
I can't break this one, I can't
Promises, I swear they're meant to be broken
You don't understand
The little things add up, they add up quickly
The promises that I won't slice open my wrist are the hardest
People tell me their secrets and promises because apparently I don't have enough of my own keeping me up at night
I try so hard to be a good friend and listen
I try so hard to keep that fucking smile plastered on my face
I try so hard because if I let go, I might never come back
I try to stay strong